October - Breast Cancer and Domestic Violence Awareness Month 10/1/13

Upon hearing October was now the month the bring awareness to Breast Cancer and Domestic Violence I thought I'd do my part by writing a few things I know and have learned..... My Granny (Yes, Daisy) had Breast Cancer and a mastectomy on one breast as a LOT of women today have. I caught her at 88 years old stuffing her old Maidenform form bra with socks even though she had the $100 bra with one built in. At her age after 9 kids, 17 grandkids,  I think 16 great grandkids, reading the Bible 13 times and never saying a harsh word about ANYONE (and we are bad!) that SHE would be comfortable in her own skin! Women I don't think we EVER truly are, no matter how "GOOD" we become. Well, at least most women! I will never understand the one's that KNOW they are awesome and have the b**** to wear some of the things I see in the Walmart pics. I firmly believe radiation and chemotherapy are deadly poisons and I would never wish them upon my worst enemy, population control (I believe in more natural remedies) but my Granny did live through it, she only gave up after breaking a 2nd hip and being told she would never walk again. HUG A SURVIVOR TODAY!!!

 On to Domestic Violence I do not talk about this ever but after years of therapy, Xanax(the devil!), finding true love, lots of yoga, and really trying to be honest and comfortable with myself, here goes. 

I had a 1st love I did REAL REAL DIRTY and super WRONG (thats a lot of other stories, sorry T***) so at 1st I felt it was karma, then I changed and did everything I could to be perfect and it only got worse. I was cheated on, lied to, spit on, poured beer on, hit it too many ways and places, sodomized,  hospitalized, ridiculed, emotionally tormented, sex was used against me as a tool, I was secluded from all my friends, I had 1 professor in college that didn't see being hospitalized by a boyfriend as an excuse to miss a final who failed me which caused me to loose my GPA based scholarship. I ended up in a battered womens home, moved 8 hours away and still was attached to and tempted by him. GET OUT NOW! YOU ARE AMAZING and deserved to be treated like it NO MATTER what your past and present is. IF you want change You must FIRST make a change!! I know everyone says it but can't you see how maybe they ALL could be right and you two are just wrong! There are hotlines and help available in most areas please get help. know your options. take action. Please contact me with any questions or concerns you may have and always remember to think happy thoughts and LOVE YOURSELF first!