October - Breast Cancer and Domestic Violence Awareness Month 10/1/13

Upon hearing October was now the month the bring awareness to Breast Cancer and Domestic Violence I thought I'd do my part by writing a few things I know and have learned..... My Granny (Yes, Daisy) had Breast Cancer and a mastectomy on one breast as a LOT of women today have. I caught her at 88 years old stuffing her old Maidenform form bra with socks even though she had the $100 bra with one built in. At her age after 9 kids, 17 grandkids,  I think 16 great grandkids, reading the Bible 13 times and never saying a harsh word about ANYONE (and we are bad!) that SHE would be comfortable in her own skin! Women I don't think we EVER truly are, no matter how "GOOD" we become. Well, at least most women! I will never understand the one's that KNOW they are awesome and have the b**** to wear some of the things I see in the Walmart pics. I firmly believe radiation and chemotherapy are deadly poisons and I would never wish them upon my worst enemy, population control (I believe in more natural remedies) but my Granny did live through it, she only gave up after breaking a 2nd hip and being told she would never walk again. HUG A SURVIVOR TODAY!!!

 On to Domestic Violence I do not talk about this ever but after years of therapy, Xanax(the devil!), finding true love, lots of yoga, and really trying to be honest and comfortable with myself, here goes. 

I had a 1st love I did REAL REAL DIRTY and super WRONG (thats a lot of other stories, sorry T***) so at 1st I felt it was karma, then I changed and did everything I could to be perfect and it only got worse. I was cheated on, lied to, spit on, poured beer on, hit it too many ways and places, sodomized,  hospitalized, ridiculed, emotionally tormented, sex was used against me as a tool, I was secluded from all my friends, I had 1 professor in college that didn't see being hospitalized by a boyfriend as an excuse to miss a final who failed me which caused me to loose my GPA based scholarship. I ended up in a battered womens home, moved 8 hours away and still was attached to and tempted by him. GET OUT NOW! YOU ARE AMAZING and deserved to be treated like it NO MATTER what your past and present is. IF you want change You must FIRST make a change!! I know everyone says it but can't you see how maybe they ALL could be right and you two are just wrong! There are hotlines and help available in most areas please get help. know your options. take action. Please contact me with any questions or concerns you may have and always remember to think happy thoughts and LOVE YOURSELF first!

Happy Home and Housewife!

So yesterday, as I spent most of my Saturday cleaning, I could NOT get this photo out of my head! I love the ones that say 'excuse the mess, we actually live here, but this one I don't agree with! Rather it's you on your hands and knees or someone you pay, a clean house is a sign of hard work and someone who cares about cleanliness and order! BALANCE IS KEY THOUGH! I find balance by cleaning a little everyday, taking me time at least once a day for yoga, meditation, and devotionals before and after work, and always making time to listen and love my man! Major props to all my ladies out there keeping it clean, sweet, fun, and sexy! 

I cried to A PERFECT CIRCLE today!

As a christian and yogi I practice every single moment every single day to try and handle whatever life throws at me with grace and gratitude but shit(<---that there, not very Christian or yogi!!) it's not easy!! When we make the choice to change our bad, negative, harmful, and hateful habits we are supposed to repent, ask forgiveness for our sins, and NOT CONTINUE TO SIN! I think waaaayyy too many people live by the "I'd rather ask for forgiveness than permission" policy! God/Mother Nature/Mother Teresa/Gandhi/Buddha (who/whatever you believe in) has already given you the rules to live by... very simple rules that  I believe 95% of the population does not follow. In order to truly be Christian or Enlightened being and receive the gifts (or things you pray and ask for) you must first abide by and follow these rules fearlessly and faithfully. BUT it's soooo easy to slip!! I love all kinds of music and while listening to my TOOL pandora station today The Noose came on, it says, "So glad to see you well/ Overcome and completely silent now/With heaven's help You cast your demons out/
And not to pull your halo down/Around your neck and tug you off your cloud/But I'm more than just a little curious/How you're planning to go about/Making your amends to the dead" 
I literally fell to my knees, threw my hands in the air and was soo grateful to whatever's up there watching over me. What I felt hearing these words now (after rededicating my life to God) as opposed to me before (on drugs saying f the world) I could no longer blame my Mother, my childhood, my choices, or bad influences for the decisions I made...We were all born the same and given the same opportunities as God's children WITH A HALO. As we get older and let the devil in many of us end up choking ourselves with that very same halo! but I love what Maynard says at the end, many of us wait til it's too late and lose someone who would have been so proud and glad to see us well, or die choking on our halo... the choice is yours! Make your amends before the opportunity is dead!

The 14 Days of Valentines

The 14 Days of Valentines

On the 1^st day of Valentines my true love gave to me, a super yummy muffin just for me to eat!

On the 2^nd day of Valentines my true love gave to me, a FULL night watching TV!

On the 3^rd day of valentines my true love gave to me, a card that is sooo sweet!

On the 4^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, a peanut butter treat!!!

On the 5^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, a nice long rub for my tired feet!

On the 6^th day of valentines my true love gave to me,  a whole 2 hours to just BE!

On the 7^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, a body rub from my head down to my knees!

On the 8^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, a chocolatey treat!

On the 9^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, her/his heart and only I hold the key!

On the 10^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, a promise to always love me for me!

On the 11^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, a wild ride that made me so YIPPEE!!

On the 12^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, true love that sets me free!!

On the 13^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, paper garlands times 3!

On the 14^th day of valentines my true love gave to me, a lifetime full of nothing but joy and glee!!!

i'll post pictures after Valentines!

Thank you for reading! 

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