I cried to A PERFECT CIRCLE today!

As a christian and yogi I practice every single moment every single day to try and handle whatever life throws at me with grace and gratitude but shit(<---that there, not very Christian or yogi!!) it's not easy!! When we make the choice to change our bad, negative, harmful, and hateful habits we are supposed to repent, ask forgiveness for our sins, and NOT CONTINUE TO SIN! I think waaaayyy too many people live by the "I'd rather ask for forgiveness than permission" policy! God/Mother Nature/Mother Teresa/Gandhi/Buddha (who/whatever you believe in) has already given you the rules to live by... very simple rules that  I believe 95% of the population does not follow. In order to truly be Christian or Enlightened being and receive the gifts (or things you pray and ask for) you must first abide by and follow these rules fearlessly and faithfully. BUT it's soooo easy to slip!! I love all kinds of music and while listening to my TOOL pandora station today The Noose came on, it says, "So glad to see you well/ Overcome and completely silent now/With heaven's help You cast your demons out/
And not to pull your halo down/Around your neck and tug you off your cloud/But I'm more than just a little curious/How you're planning to go about/Making your amends to the dead" 
I literally fell to my knees, threw my hands in the air and was soo grateful to whatever's up there watching over me. What I felt hearing these words now (after rededicating my life to God) as opposed to me before (on drugs saying f the world) I could no longer blame my Mother, my childhood, my choices, or bad influences for the decisions I made...We were all born the same and given the same opportunities as God's children WITH A HALO. As we get older and let the devil in many of us end up choking ourselves with that very same halo! but I love what Maynard says at the end, many of us wait til it's too late and lose someone who would have been so proud and glad to see us well, or die choking on our halo... the choice is yours! Make your amends before the opportunity is dead!